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Lost

Posted: Sun Mar 22, 2009 1:16 am
by Renegade_Turner
Here's a place to talk about people you've lost, just to get it off your chest to someone. I don't mean a girlfriend that you were with for a week when you were 12. I mean someone who is actually gone and you're not getting them back. Ever.

I'd like if someone else went first, so I know I'm not the only one.

Re: Lost

Posted: Sun Mar 22, 2009 4:55 am
by Ac30
My aunt recently died :(. Stomach cancer.

Re: Lost

Posted: Sun Mar 22, 2009 5:10 am
by Chainsaw man
Thats tough. My Grandmother is getting to be 90 soon if she dosent kick the bucket. she aint doing to well. I never got a chance to know my Grandfather on my fathers side, but Im glad I visit my grandmother. I know she is going to die during my time, maybe in 20's. Its not a wish, but I know I will have to face that kind of greif again. How do you face it?

I have personaly lost myself to my failiures, and I lost who I once was. I Demolshed a school building, got kicked out, droped out, whent to some coureses in the suburbs that were useless, traviled to the states, started a GED but had to stop for family politics. My Lifes a fucking mess from my first choice. I decided to blow up a school lab to get back at a teacher, and from there everyone around me has fucked me over. I blame them, but most of all I blame myself...

I'v lost my identity of who I once was to Depresson, and pissing it up with mates, and though that, I eventuly loose my dignity. I have become some one desparate with nothing to loose.

Dose that count as loss's?

Re: Lost

Posted: Sun Mar 22, 2009 5:16 am
by Ac30
Chainsaw man wrote:Thats tough. My Grandmother is getting to be 90 soon if she dosent kick the bucket. she aint doing to well. I never got a chance to know my Grandfather on my fathers side, but Im glad I visit my grandmother. I know she is going to die during my time, maybe in 20's. Its not a wish, but I know I will have to face that kind of greif again. How do you face it?

I have personaly lost myself to my failiures, and I lost who I once was. I Demolshed a school building, got kicked out, droped out, whent to some coureses in the suburbs that were useless, traviled to the states, started a GED but had to stop for family politics. My Lifes a fucking mess from my first choice. I decided to blow up a school lab to get back at a teacher, and from there everyone around me has fucked me over. I blame them, but most of all I blame myself...

I'v lost my identity of who I once was to Depresson, and pissing it up with mates, and though that, I eventuly loose my dignity. I have become some one desparate with nothing to loose.

Dose that count as loss's?
What coincidence! I never met my grand-father on my father's side either.

Re: Lost

Posted: Sun Mar 22, 2009 5:25 am
by Renegade_Turner
I was talking more about physical losses, but yeah that's pretty tough on you at the same time. My grandparents on my mother's side were dead before I was born. My grandad on my dad's side passed away last year. He went peacefully though. It was an odd feeling when I was told he was dead. I was sad obviously, but I never really knew him. The feeling of regret was the dominant emotion. Regret that I never got to know my grandad before he died.

The reason I made this thread:
My friend hung himself on Thursday. His funeral is in 4 hours. It's fuckin' gay. Couldn't sleep last night. Was trying my hardest to get a proper sleep so I would actually be awake for the funeral, but that wasn't going to work. Broke down crying last night in the bathroom of the pub I was in. Some guy was nice enough to knock on the door of the cubicle when he heard and ask me what was up, turns out this guy's cousin hung himself last week aswell. Little things like that give me more faith in humanity, considering it was really none of his concern. Anyway, that's a side matter. It's odd how the people who commit suicide are sometimes the last people you'd expect it from.

Re: Lost

Posted: Sun Mar 22, 2009 6:27 am
by shadow717
Renegade_Turner wrote:I was talking more about physical losses, but yeah that's pretty tough on you at the same time. My grandparents on my mother's side were dead before I was born. My grandad on my dad's side passed away last year. He went peacefully though. It was an odd feeling when I was told he was dead. I was sad obviously, but I never really knew him. The feeling of regret was the dominant emotion. Regret that I never got to know my grandad before he died.

The reason I made this thread:
My friend hung himself on Thursday. His funeral is in 4 hours. It's fuckin' gay. Couldn't sleep last night. Was trying my hardest to get a proper sleep so I would actually be awake for the funeral, but that wasn't going to work. Broke down crying last night in the bathroom of the pub I was in. Some guy was nice enough to knock on the door of the cubicle when he heard and ask me what was up, turns out this guy's cousin hung himself last week aswell. Little things like that give me more faith in humanity, considering it was really none of his concern. Anyway, that's a side matter. It's odd how the people who commit suicide are sometimes the last people you'd expect it from.
That's horrible, you have my condolences, one of my friends died in a car accident about 2 years ago, that was pretty hard on me. That terrible, I feel really bad for you.

Re: Lost

Posted: Sun Mar 22, 2009 6:41 am
by nutcracker
Hung him self :O
thats hardcore, im sorry for your loss >_>

Re: Lost

Posted: Sun Mar 22, 2009 7:24 am
by Glabbit
I take off my hat and stand in silence for your friend, Ren.
Condolences and support are given.
May we all find peace within ourselves.

Re: Lost

Posted: Sun Mar 22, 2009 8:11 am
by Renegade_Turner
Cheers lads. It's probably not the time or place to talk about it, but I had to vent about it to someone who was in no way involved. Oh well, time to go bury a friend.

Re: Lost

Posted: Sun Mar 22, 2009 9:14 am
by Glabbit
There's no harm in searching for support where it can be found.
Good luck.

Re: Lost

Posted: Sun Mar 22, 2009 12:44 pm
by Sandurz
Renegade_Turner wrote:My friend hung himself on Thursday. His funeral is in 4 hours. It's fuckin' gay. Couldn't sleep last night. Was trying my hardest to get a proper sleep so I would actually be awake for the funeral, but that wasn't going to work. Broke down crying last night in the bathroom of the pub I was in. Some guy was nice enough to knock on the door of the cubicle when he heard and ask me what was up, turns out this guy's cousin hung himself last week aswell. Little things like that give me more faith in humanity, considering it was really none of his concern. Anyway, that's a side matter. It's odd how the people who commit suicide are sometimes the last people you'd expect it from.
My condolences man. Shit like that just blows my mind.

That almost happened to me. I'm glad to say I was able to stop her though.

Re: Lost

Posted: Sun Mar 22, 2009 2:32 pm
by Count Roland
well my grandmother on my moms side died when I was in the hospital at six years old. and than my grandma on my dads side died when I was ten, then my grandfather on my dads side died last january, than my grandfather on my moms side tried to hang himself, but he was partially paralyzed and couldn't manage to step off the chair, so I guess they said he must have leaned against the rope for a long time before he died. than my step grandma on my moms side died.

Re: Lost

Posted: Sun Mar 22, 2009 2:35 pm
by Blorx
I almost lost a good friend of mine the other day...I spent half an hour on a bridge talking him out of jumping...

Re: Lost

Posted: Sun Mar 22, 2009 4:10 pm
by nerodx
Wow, I'm sorry for your loss Ren, same goes for everyone else as well.

Re: Lost

Posted: Sun Mar 22, 2009 4:47 pm
by rebel28
well my favourite uncle died about 10 years ago, I didn't cry, I've never been a crying person, but I'm glad he became a christian before he died :)

Renegade: Sorry for your loss.